Testament. Adventure. Goofball.

        

 
Monday night (May 21st), Dave Dabling and I went for a long nature drive out Vantage Highway, over to Benton City, up Horse Heaven Hills (which I've never been through), onto a random wheat field road and down Badger Canyon.  It was GORGEOUS and we saw some really nice places to live out there. It's beautiful and I just love driving through new places like that.  Such and adventure for me.  Dave had never been up on the hill by where I nanny since the new road had been put in.  It has an amazing view of the temple and the whole Tri-Cities and in the night it is spectacular with all of the lights aglow.  Well, I was driving myself crazy with the whole me/Dave thing, not knowing what was going on and playing a stupid guessing game for months trying to figure out if he liked me or if he is just a really nice guy.  I started tip toeing around him and really not being myself and that drives me crazy!

So, I kind of had alternate plans for the evening and not just a drive with him.  Sitting atop this mountain over looking the temple and this gorgeous view, I did not want to spit it out but I knew that I needed to.  So I asked.  Well, turns out we're just friends, which is not really the answer I wanted but for some reason I didn't react the way I had with past guys.  I told him that I was just sick of playing the guessing game and that I am still glad that we can do things together as friends.  I told him that I was thankful for his friendship because since I dropped everything with Nate, who was my best best friend for 10 months, and my other best friend is engaged and fell off the planet, I really had no one to talk to or be semi close to at all.  He asked why I had to stop talking to Nate all together and I told him straight up.  I actually opened up a little and told him about my trust issues before and how Nate made me open up and how it was just too hard for me to be just friends.  It hurt too much to see him and try to not have that emotional connection with him so I had to cut all communication.  I don't remember how he reacted to that but he was understanding and told me thanks for letting him spend time with me and for being his friend.  He gave me a good hug that night.  I really miss my Nate hugs.  That's probably the thing I miss the most about him.

So, Institute on Tuesday was quite interesting.  First of all, my thought process with the whole Dave situation: Dave saves me a seat right next to him every Tuesday at Institute and has been for the last 2 months.  I know that when you sit by someone consecutively for that long it usually means you are dating so I knew that people had been talking about us.  So, Dave just wants to be friends so that means that I can't sit by him every week anymore.  If I am at Institute early he will find me and sit by me, so I need to be late so that I can go sit somewhere else.  Well, I got off of work a little late and I needed to re-do my hair because it was a mess and then I was talking to Tyeanna so I ended up being late anyways.  I felt so bad as I walked in and saw that there was a seat open by him (actually he was sitting alone) but I just walked past him and sat in the front.  SO HARD!! I don't know if I'll do that again because it was no fun.  I felt bad for snubbing him off...even though we still talked after.

After Institute Dave and I agreed to meet at Maverick to get gas like we often do.  I went to get into my car.  Sometimes my key doesn't want to open my drivers side door so when my door wasn't unlocking I just went around to the passengers side.  I slipped the key into the lock and it didn't work there either!  A blinking green light inside the car caught my attention when suddenly it occurred to me that my car didn't have an alarm system...WRONG CAR!! I died inside as I remembered that Dave, Cherika, and Brian were watching me.  I was laughing so hard as I bolted to my car across the parking lot.  Dave drove up beside my car and said, "WHY DID YOU GO AROUND TO THE PASSENGERS SIDE!! BAHAHA!"  Needless to say, I felt like an idiot goofball.

                       

Times like these make me very thankful for nature adventures that make me smile and that I can laugh at myself and that I can give others the opportunity to get some giggles in their day also.